It's the backlash that hurts.
When you do so much nice and you treat people so well and you get nothing but hurt over and over again, it's more painful than difficult.
I mean, I shouldn't say "nothing but" but wow! this area is just full of it, I've seen. I never really wonder "why" I ended up here? but man oh man! this area is in need.
I'm not one to doubt higher powers really, usually. And, that's that. No ifs ands or buts about all that.
And like I said/posted .. it's the pain that is more of a problem. It impedes .. .. It's not even close to beneficial. And, why on this green earth people would want to inhibit productivity? positivity? progression? I have NO IDEA .. .. Like .. the only thing I can think of, and, the only thing I have seen that even resembles any kind of "way" or "trend" about it and that matches up even slightly each time I relate it to it is that people (well, SOME people, at least. Not everybody) are just so USED to doing so, that they come across somebody who's not even messing with them, messing around IN all that negativity and they go and be all nasty to them, too .. .. .. That is thee ONLY THING I have seen that matches up with it, even slightly.
And I never really even ever did anything myself to end up here but do good in life .. I mean, so what if people get jealous. So ? I mean, I don't get jealous really of other people doing well in life, but I sure do understand it! I HAVE understood it, also. I mean, I can't really think of anything otherwise what it could have been that ended me up around here instead of somewhere else and in a better off situation .. .. .. hm .. .. .. And I know GOD or GODS are not to blame for this. It's a person or people who are at fault here. As in, not to "blame" but who did the wrong thing about it instead of the right thing.
I mean, all in all, I'm the type of person who is HAPPY FOR others doing good in life. Not "let's see how we can take them down then do so". And, having been who I was at whatever point where I was wronged and ended up here after all "that"? I mean, you must be some kind of demonic person type to have done or be doing something like that to a person like me .. .. .. I mean, having an aside in life or not .. you WILL NOT be going through with what you are trying to do or what you DID try to do in the past. THAT will not be happening. Ok? Ok.
Anyways, enough rambling (or .. um, you know .. NOT) .. I know what I post is true it;s just my matter and this is my blog. So no problem with it really, but, it's just alot of complicated junk that isn't mine in the first place, all out on here for whoever. That's all it is. And .. it is what it is.
